One day at work a couple of years back, an alert popped up on my phone: my salary had been deposited. It was a fair amount for a student, so I proceeded with my usual when payday arrived: I launched every shopping app on my phone. From Amazon to Zara, the list was endless. In under 60 minutes, I had spent £90 on clothes, decorative items and a totally unused heavy blanket that I never used.
A short while after, I went online again and bought a hairdryer. I already owned one, but thought an extra one wouldn't be a problem. Then I added LED strip lights and two pairs of shoes that didn't even fit me. This wasn't a new pattern. In fact, I’d been notorious for it since I started earning.
Whenever I felt stressed, tired or bored, I would doomscroll until it always ended in an unplanned shopping spree. My excuse was always: “Oh well, it’s just £5.” But £5 turned into £10, then £20, and continued.
I was never entirely certain why I did this. Perhaps it was due to my upbringing in a low-income family, where we’d experience months without purchasing new outfits or anything to decorate the home. So any moment I had some disposable income, there was always a hidden desire for novel and exciting things. Or maybe, and definitely more likely, I was just financially irresponsible and gave in readily to the lure of demands.
In the end, I opted to experiment with something new. Before acquiring anything, I’d place it in my basket, wait 24 hours, then make a choice on whether to finalize the purchase. The best part of this method was that it provided me time to reflect – an action I’d never done before. For the first time since I turned 18, I started asking myself: “Do I truly require this? Can I afford it?” More often than not, the answer was negative.
If I accessed my shopping apps and found products lingering in my basket, I’d remove them and begin anew. Using this system, I ceased acquiring things that I intuitively knew I would never utilize. I once wanted to purchasing a trio of games, but after waiting before visiting the shop, I understood I never actually engage with tabletop games.
I also wanted to buying a disposable film camera for my first holiday to the coast. After pausing I recalled I possessed a phone, similar to most people, that has a perfectly good camera, and thus had no requirement to acquire a separate device.
It additionally signifies I am more discerning about the things I do buy, and I can finally review my bank statements without feeling guilt or discomfort.
Naturally, there have been times I’ve slipped back into previous habits – it's human nature. The difference now is that I can recognise the warning signs sooner, especially when I’m hastening into a transaction. I’ve realised ennui is a powerful trigger. It’s perhaps the primary motivator of my reckless expenditure.
Consumer culture preys on this idleness and our need for immediate satisfaction. That’s why, looking back, forcing myself to halt before purchasing has felt strangely liberating. To be able to have control over my urges and remind myself that I don't have to spend my diligently earned money on unnecessary products feels as revolutionary as it is straightforward.
Elara is a home improvement expert with a passion for sustainable bathroom designs and innovative plumbing solutions.